In God We Trust

So many times we tend to talk to ourselves... Last week was one of that week for me when I was my own friend... Being new to office, I didn't have many friends plus my job of being a consultant involves traveling and all of my immediate colleague were overseas this week.. So that left me totally alone in the office... I wished that I had more friends in office ... But for a change I also enjoyed just being own my own...

So today when I having lunch all alone, I was wondering how will I handle this new assignment which looks much more challenging and scary that any of the job assignment that I have done so far. Then a voice from inside me said.... "Don't worry God will take care of everything... God has given you this assignment just because he knows that you will be able to handle it... Otherwise he wouldn't have put you into this.. " It is a very very soothing and positive thought.. Gives me energy to go ahead and accept any challenges that will come along the way.

Then a next thought suddenly crossed my mind... "Does god really exists? If he really exists, then why are so many natural and man-made calamities, why there is so much of negative emotions around us..., why so many animals get extinct each year..., why there are so many untimely deaths...etc ... etc.. " And I couldn't give any logical answer for any of those questions...

So my logical mind still has got this doubt about existence of God, but my heart always says.... "God will take care of you... Just do the best in everything you take up... help the needy and everything will fall into place..." This is such a positive belief and I want to hold on to it... Even though there is no logical explanation of existence of God, just this belief can give faith and do miracles... It gives immense amount of energy to face challenges head on and in the end you emerge as a winner proving the existence of god... :)

Indian Tea -- A Tradition

Vishal always feel that I am crazy about drinking tea... He cannot understand how can I drink and enjoy tea in Singapore's hot climate. After getting married to Vishal, I always wanted his company for Sat and Sun evening tea. But he normally doesn't like hot drinks... :( So it just leaves me alone with no company for tea...

Go to think of it, being crazy for tea has got much more deeper meaning than just its taste. Drinking tea reminds me of my Indian-ess.... In India, drinking tea is a culture in itself. Every morning and evening there will be tea in almost all the Indian homes marking a start of new day or a lovely evening. Any guest cannot leave the house without having at least a cup of tea. In the morning, everyone in the house will normally sit together having a cup of tea and talking about all the interesting news that has come in newspaper... Life wasn't complete without tea...

And now I am in a new land ( ok ok... not that new anymore but still... ). I crave for Indian tea... And the only option to get is make it urself ( and its so boring as I always had someone else making tea for me..) and drink it all alone... :(
aha.. I miss India..

Going Aganist the Gravity ...

Its was unlike all other valentine's day... We already had a big fight at home... (and wow for making up Vishal first time made ginger tea for me but in the vessel which I use for cooking subji!!!) We had not decided where should we go as being Chinese New Year (CNY) everything in Singapore was closed and all the restaurants were booked!!!! And we cursed that at least one of us should have taken initiative to book a nice restaurant...

Anyhow, just to do something we went out aimlessly roaming with our friends... Realized that all the malls are closed... I wanted to see Lion dance which is very famous during CNY time, but our bad luck we reached late... :( I didn't want to come back home soon, so at last went to clarke (the night life place in Singapore). Had a drink or two and sitting there by the side of the river, we could see many people going for reverse Bungy. I had always wanted to go for it. It was something so adventurous and scary.. Just to test my own confidence and guts I wanted to go. I asked Vishal once... And being V day and not being able to do anything worthwhile till now... he at last agreed ...

wow!! It was once in a lifetime experience... This Valentine's day was indeed unlike all others... This would be the day which I would remember forever....

Life Moves On ..

Today when I sitting in the meeting room for the weekly status meeting, my manger said next week we will discuss about some new machine being launched ... Then I suddenly realize I won't be there to attend this meeting next week. Its my last week in the office.

It was a strange feeling.. Strange to think that next week at the same time and the same place, all my team members will be there to attend the meeting and talk about the product and weekly status... Only I won't be there... It was like thinking everything else is stagnant and I am the person who is leaving everything and moving on to my next destination.... Today if I go back to my first organization, maybe the project that I worked on would still be running, they might be having the same monday morning status meeting in the same meeting room with some familiar faces around... It seems so far fetched.. but it might be really happening...

How time flies .. If I look back, I can still see myself getting ready for school, and then collage, then my first job, my marriage .... etc etc ... Now I have again moved on.. leaving my third job, in search of satisfaction and happiness ... Yeah true, nothing is permanent in life... we have to move on and on and on .........

A lil bit of extra love!!!

Before getting married to Vishal, I never liked pets... I used to always think that people who keep pets are from different planet... I could not come in terms with staying along with animal....
I am scared of all kinds of animals (human beings included... :) but specially scared of dogs. In my childhood, twice I was almost bitten by some stray dogs...
So when Vishal told me about Chikku/Tuffy (his pet at home... ) during our courtship time, it never occurred me that I will also have to come face to face with him in sometime ....
After marriage, I did realize that I have a big task in my hand to befriend with this creature who is most important member of our family. This was the first time I was coming across any pet and if I have to stay in his house, I have to make myself known to Chikku. And make him accept me as the member of the family. My god... this was a big task and I had no idea how to do this seemingly easy (but difficult) task ...

Slowly, I did realize that Chikku is really intelligent and has a unique mind of his own... The best is he has his own family hierarchy... So in his mind the our family hierarchy is something like this.... Papa --> Mom --> Vishal --> Chikku --> Gudia. So Papa being the eldest, he will not bark at him and listen to everything that he says...Gudia he treats like a kid and expects that Gudia should do everything that he commands. (Gudia should give him roti in his mouth he will not pick it up if she keeps it on the ground.. ). Mummy always says that Chikku is my most favorite son and I can hear Vishal grumbling on phone... :)

When I started visiting Vishal's place in Delhi frequently, Chikku stopped barking at me.. Slowly he started accepting that I always come back home with Vishal.... When Vishal goes back home after 2-3 months, Chikku gets so excited and happy that he will jump all over the place, will not let us talk. Only after he has finished his part of welcoming, we can talk to everyone else in the family... Although, I have not yet succeeded in getting this kind of welcome from him, I always wish that one day I would be able to get the same kind of love and attention from him...

Deep down I realized that Chikku can feel if anyone at home is feeling low or in trouble. I came to know why everyone is so crazy about dog as a pet. Everyone in my family shares a special and different relationship with Chikku. He is someone who makes our family so unique and so loving... I am just amazed how a small creature like Chikku who can't speak our language, do not have the so called human emotions, can understand whatever is going on in our heart.. he is really the one who knows what unconditional love is... Maybe thats why god made lovely creature like Chikku, to make us human realize that there is something more than materialistic things in life ....